My definition of “Have a blessed day”

Yesterday, I didn’t do anything that I regretted. I wanted to help the only homeless shelter in Jefferson City, Mo., The Salvation Army and although it’s not the shelter itself, it is the thrift store that helps fund it, and I found a plethora of wood that I can carve with. For most anyone else, this may be an average or good day, but for me it was a blessed one.

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Weakness Assumptions

Repost somewhere/anywhere if it can help someone.

#Epilepsy, #Bi-Polar #bipolar #Bipolar1 #Depression, #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder, #Alcoholic, #suicidal, #weakness, #strength, #mentalillness #mentallyill #sobriety #smoking #smokefree #diagnosed #weak #strong

God’s Love

I just love this quote because every car I owned I totalled due to my epileptic seizures. I walked away without any scratches and never hit or injured anyone else either. I also don’t drive now. Looking back on all of those, I just wonder why am I loved so much.

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#God #Love #Quote #St.Augustine

Melodramatic Smoking

From 16 to 52 (hopefully), I smoked. I saw my grandmother die with a harsh, constant cough, and with that thought in mind, I told myself that I was committing a slow suicide. I’ve been smoke/vapor free for 9 straight days. On the first day, I found a Marlboro on the sidewalk in perfect condition. I destroyed it believing one slip could easily lead me to constant smoking. I was also happy with myself over equating smoking with suicide. I Googled the two terms and they were often used together.

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Guess Who Said This

St. Jerome (347 AD – 420 AD)
a Christian priest, confessor, theologian, and historian. He was born at Stridon, a village near Emona on the border of Dalmatia and Pannonia. He is best known for his translation of most of the Bible into Latin, and his commentaries on the Gospels. His list of writings is extensive. Wikipedia
#quote, #St.Jerome #heathenish

The Death of Ted

In 1990 before I was sent to Nicaragua, I was thinking about my mortality and how I could die. In 1990, there was a war going on with the CIA aided Conflicts. For some reason I started thinking of St Oscar Romero. I was not praying or meditating, but my head was pointed at the ground as I walked along a sidewalk in Columbia, Missouri. Graffiti crossed my vision and never left me. Someone had painted on the concrete a police-like outline of a person. It was similar to what would be seen on TV for a murder on a city street. Below the right foot, the words “The Death of Ted” was written. Above the right hand was a short white line that I easily assumed was a cigarette. I’ve always wondered was this a warning that I would die of lung cancer or something smoking related, or would I be murdered. A nun assured me that I should just quit the cigarettes. Seriously, it’s almost impossible to believe that this was a message from God, an angel, the ghost of St. Romero, or just a random occurrence. However for 32 years, I’ve been constantly trying to quit. Electronic Cigs, Vapors, or ECigarettes are no help to me. No matter the level of Nicotine, their use builds my cravings. I do have the gum and supportive friends. Furthermore, I’ve developed the routine of deep breathing and praying when cravings arise. Currently, I’m two days smokeless!!!

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#quitingsmoking #smoking, #quiting #Nicotine #strange #weird #death, #grafetti, #message #warning #supernatural