I’ve never been diagnosed with an anger control problem, but I’d kick their butt if they said I was wrong. I don’t need a diagnosis to know. I overreact, yell, use profanity, and a few times in the past I’ve lost consciousness and slipped into a focal epileptic seizure, when I’ve acted out outrageously. Those extreme times are absolutely no fun.
I took a job in retail, a grocery store, because I thought it would not be stressful. Sure, retail isn’t stressful. Try telling a venomous customer their coupon is expired, especially during a world-wide emergancy pandamic. This was the perfect day for me to have one of the most intense, forcible, zealous, extreme explosions. Long lines, trying, trying to quit smoking at the same time, and hundreds of ugly, resentful, annoyed, or outright explosive marine corps of customers. I was certainly tempted to snatch my phone up and threaten management with an on coming seizure and how I needed a break immediately. I’d be sure to scream it loud enough that any attorney within ear range would sign me up for their services.
Please understand in an eight hour shift, crew members only get two 15-minute breaks. I told myself with each temptation to just take a deep breath. “God, you lead.” When exhaling, I followed it with, “I’ll follow.” With each brief meditation and mantra I gripped the figure on my rosary-bracelet.
It was a virtually a miracle, not only was my anger kept in check, but I actually thought of my managers. Anger and pride were inhibited. I put myself in their shoes and knew they were probably having a worse time with people demanding all sorts of cleaning supplies and toilet paper and not even be able to tell them when the next shipment was to be expected. Thank God.